The Perils of Darkness
Discarded steel tubes entangled to form an interesting sculpture


Sulking like the most stubborn children, people today have closed  themselves to the recognition of the all wise love thereby harming  themselves to such an extent that it makes it extremely difficult to ascend to greater heights. They have become lost like a useless grain of seed in this creation.


The smallest of all the evils they have inflicted upon themselves and others during their wanderings have become multilayered incarnations on earth that result from their reciprocal actions. These incarnations take up centuries, perhaps thousands of years, ever delaying the possibility of their spiritual ascension and causing new suffering to arise.


They form new chains of unnecessary entanglements, not realizing that they must redeem all their evil acts down to the finest speck of dust before their spirit can rise from the confusion brought about by stubbornness.



A Message to Earnest Seekers of the Light

This message is for those earnest seekers wishing to free themselves from this disgusting state of humanity. Those who wish not to loose the opportunity of ascension and who do not want to be sucked in by the whirlpool of destruction created by those who no longer wish to change themselves.


But even amongst the earnest seekers, only a small number of them will attain real salvation for many will become weak too soon and loose heart and even sometimes think they have taken the wrong course. Because so much opposes them and causes vexation, worry and suffering. For before their awakening, they did not notice the evils around them, nor their past wrong ways of thinking and acting



The Severance from Darkness


When one begins to strive away from the darkness that holds them, one may begin to notice that this process is quite painful. Because until then, the grip of the darkness and evil was not noticeable. They did not realize that they had voluntarily adapted themselves in its embrace.  


Prior to their awakening, they felt no counter pressure but always yielded without struggling against evil. Only when one decides to uplift himself will he feel the pressure against his ascent. He must tear himself forcibly away in other to become free of the ties retaining it. This tearing away cannot always take place without pains, for a tearing away cannot be accomplished with gentleness.


Silhouette of a man hanging on to a tightrope with a pack of menacing dogs at his feet for the concept of hanging on for his life.




The Call For Judgement

No time is left for a quiet severance. For this earth has already sunk far too deeply and the final fulfillment is upon it. Many people do not reflect about all this. Many may doubt their resolution to disengage from darkness because they never perceived such hinderances before as they were quite comfortable in it and hence they sink further into the dark until the call for judgement.


If you wish to make the ascension, you must wrench yourself free from the darkness of this world. As soon as you resolve to escape the collapsing darkness pulling you down into the depths, a ray of light will appear to help you. You have tied enumerable knots into the threads of your fate through your past wrong thinking and actions that so pulled you down.


You will find the knots you wove for yourself along your path and you must untie them so you can be freed.


Do Not Give Up!

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Everything will hamper and oppose you the moment you choose ascent into the light. You must fight for yourself and never forget that you are actually in the darkness where a good volition is immediately attacked. Your surroundings will quickly seek to make their claims felt if you dare to sever yourself from them. Although previously, nobody bothered to ask you what your soul desired. Nobody paid any attention to your soul, to its hunger and starvation for truth. Nobody proved willing to refresh you. Yet at the very moment you dare to place your foot on the path to redemption, then they suddenly and quickly make themselves heard, so that you will not leave them. You will see that your relatives and friends are nothing but blind tools of the darkness. observe this and learn to recognize the darkness thereby.


Your love must be directed to the light. Do not be swayed.


I pray for your strength and conviction as you tread out of the valleys of shadows of darkness. The light is with you. Do not miss this ascension. It is at Hand!!!


---It is at hand!


Khadijat Quadri


The Star of Bethlehem

The light of truth will once again shine on earth as it once did above a stable in Bethlehem. But at that time, only a few accepted the light and those who listened very soon distorted and misrepresented it, as men on earth are apt to do.

What they forgot, they tried to replace with ideas of their own, thereby creating only a confusion that nowadays is meant to be passed as invaluable truth.

Out of alarm that everything will collapse if even the smallest pillar proves to be unsound, every ray of light that can bring recognition is resisted, defiled, and if there is no other way, it is ridiculed with a malice and cunning. Their reactions are simply born out of fear and more fearful are those who dare not question lies.

Clear Thinking Versus Narrow Mindedness

Today, clear thinking is rarely to be found on earth. In spite of this, a light of true recognition must at last come over all humanity.

The time has arrived when everything unhealthy, invented by the human brain will be swept out of creation. The human brain will be unable to suppress the enlightenment that the truth wears a different aspect from the unsteady images. Images which boasts of conceit and commercialism, morbid imagination and hypocrisy and a craving for earthly power and earthy admiration all of which were created out of narrow mindedness.

Those who have lead millions of people astray and kept them enslaved in wrong mindedness will face their reckoning. Lies cannot hold in a space of truth. May they be courageous enough to open their eyes to the light even though it goes against their vile beliefs. May they listen attentively and examine inwardly to see whether the message comes nearer to their understanding than what they had learned in the past. May they open their ears and intuitive senses to feel the breath of fresh air that penetrates to them as spiritual activity.

Truth is Consistent.
The Impossible Demands Faith.


Only the impossible demands blind faith. For whatever is possible immediately stimulates independent thinking. Wherever there is truth which is always characterized by naturalness and consistency, thinking and deep intuitive sensing automatically set in. It is only through deep intuitive sensing can anything become conviction which alone brings value to the human spirit.

That Holy Night in Bethlehem

So now, along with everything else, the cycle which began on a holy night in Bethlehem is also closing. And the closing of this cycle must cast out all inaccuracies in its transmissions and instead bring truth to victory. The darkness created by humanity is dispelled by the penetrating light. All lies must fall away, so truth can emerge in purity and in accordance with divine laws.


It is impossible for a human body to be born without physical procreation. It is also impossible for a physical body to be raised into the ethereal realm after an earthy death.


Jesus was procreated physically, otherwise an earthly birth could not have been possible. At that time, only a few recognized the star as the fulfillment of the prophesies. Among them was Mary and Joseph. Three kings found their way to the stable and presented earthly gifts but then they went away leaving Jesus without protection. A child whose earthly path they should have smoothed using their wealth and power so that no harm would befall him as he fulfills his mission. Although they received enlightenment, enabling them to find the child, they did not fully recognize the sublime call.

The Christ Lives Amongst Us

Today, the Christ lives amongst us. He/she would display nothing extraordinary. He/She knows nothing of their calling except to seek the truth at every turn until he/she realizes the message of truth abides within like a radio transmission. He/she would divest himself from all the fantasies invented by human brains.


Today, at the return of the star all errors shall henceforth be redeemed through grace. And so it is.


---And so it is!

NOBLE FRIENDS - The Antidote to Suffering 

The Five Hinderance

The Buddha taught that there are five hindrances to realizing enlightenment.


They are:


  1. Sensual desire
  2. Ill will
  3. Sloth, torpor, or drowsiness
  4. Restlessness and worry
  5. Uncertainty or skepticism

These mental states are called "hindrances" because they bind us to ignorance and to suffering (dukkha). Realizing the liberation of enlightenment requires unbinding ourselves from the hindrances. But how do you do that?


Practicing With the Five Hindrances" rather than "Getting Rid of the Five Hindrances," cannot be ignored or wished away. Ultimately, the hindrances are states we are creating for ourselves, but until we perceive this personally, they will be a problem.

Much of the Buddha's advice about the hindrances relates to meditation. But in truth, practice never ceases, and usually what comes up repeatedly in meditation is an issue for us all the time. With every hindrance, the first step is to recognize it, acknowledge it, and understand that you are the one making it "real.


In this moment, I would like to Highlight one of the main antidotes to the Five hinderances.

Do you have a noble friend?


The one antidote that is the same for all five main hindrances is to have noble friends and noble conversations. To have the kind of friends with whom one discusses not gossip, not the weather, politics or other people, but the way of emancipation through Dharma. Those kinds of friends are the most important people in one's life.

When Ananda the Buddha's cousin and attendant once said to the Buddha, Sir, a good friend is half of the holy life. 


The Buddha replied-- Do not say so Ananda. A good friend is the whole of the Holy life!! 


There is nothing that can take the place of a spiritual friend. This is the most important person in one's life. The kind of friend who helps one remember to be on the path. 

It is a matter of remembering. When we remember, we can do it. Time and time again we forget our temptations. The noble conversations we have with such a person helps us to look at ourselves and see that our problems come from craving and wanting. 

We don't want to eat poisons or fill our bodies with rubbish food. By the same token, we should not fill our minds with poisonous talk, negative media, social media noise and so on. The mind must be fed constantly with righteous talk. The talk that uplifts, the talk that helps, sooths, calms and most of all helps us to see our way out of the problems that beset every human being. 

When we have the good fortune to have a noble friend with whom we can have noble conversations, then it is also our way of repaying that goodness by being a noble friend to others.


Noble friends are like a chain reaction. We do not need to search for one. We can also be one. 


At Kuadra, we are dedicated to having noble conversations. We understand the importance of finding and staying on the right path. We know that we cannot just talk in theory but we must practice in daily life. We live in strange times, where the one who is your friend today, will become your enemy tomorrow. Many people are isolated with their thoughts and feelings and they simply cannot trust those around them. Even the so called spiritualists, therapists and healers, are unable to practice the hindrances and therefore unable to hold sacred space for others.


Mara (devil) is in the mind and too many times we fall prey to temptation. Keep us as your noble friend and be noble to others along your way. 


NAMASTE. I honor the Buddha Nature in You!

Grabovoi Healing and Coronavirus

Dear friends,


It has been a precarious last few months but we keep waxing strong!.


In the words of Maya Angelou—- WE RISE!


FYI, our Nuvision Holographic Scaling tool works with Grabovoi numbers.


If you know anyone or are concerned about coronavirus, email me and I can reconnect the healing numbers to your holographic reading.


I am doing this FOR FREE for those who have already had a reading with me.


What does this mean?


Grabovoi numbers use Radionic signatures to heal various health ailments. They were developed by the Russian psychic Grigori Grabovoi using his Radionic machine.


For those who don't know Radionic theory and practice is the concept that man and all life forms share a common ground in that they are all connected to each other within the electro-magnetic field of the earth; and that all life forms carry its own electro-magnetic field, which when sufficiently distorted will result in disease and sickness. Accepting that all is energy, Radionics sees organs, diseases, and remedies as having their own particular frequency or vibration. These factors can be expressed in numerical values or 'Rates' or in the form of geometric patterns. These numbers provide the means by which the practitioner can identify and treat disease at a distance.


With this in mind Grigori Grabovoi would then use his Radionic machine to pinpoint the numbers associated with various health conditions, then instruct his clients to meditate on these numbers resulting in miraculous recoveries such as regenerated uterus's, kidneys, reversed again, and much more.


Nuvision takes it a step further by broadcasting the Grabovoi numbers and sound frequencies into the quantum field of clients.


A few weeks ago, I shared with you an innovative new tool at Kuadra called the Nuvision Holographic Scaling Tool. Since the incorporation of holographic scaling in therapeutic sessions, hundreds of people have explored this healing modality and found amazing results!

First, Nuvision can source for the true origins of physical, mental, emotional and energetic causes and connect individuals with homeopathic remedies, affirmations, plant based essences, crystals, color therapies, quantum healing, sound frequencies and
more. You can explore the primary motivations in your relationships, insight into the energetic health of your home, get information about healing remedies for your pet and more.

The True Sources of Traumas Explored in Holographic Psychotherapy:


Core belief Systems:

This is the main cause of all human issues. Our core beliefs have been so ingrained in us, that they have become unconscious to us. We develop core beliefs from our parents, community, schools and peers. We unconsciously agree to these beliefs and many impede upon our ability to contact our personal power. We are also negatively affected by the perceptions and projections of others which can have devastating effects on our energetic field and hinder our ability to reach our fullest potential. With holographic psychotherapy, clients are able to become aware of hidden core beliefs and their effects on physical, mental and spiritual health. Awareness is key. Once the belief is realized, beliefs are released energetically by using integrated therapy models.


Energetic Imprints:

If you belief that you are more than just a physical body and made up of unseen aspects, then you must realize that you are responsible for identifying these other aspects of yourself and developing systems to heal and maintain energetic balance. You will be shocked to find out how much information is stored in your energy field.
Every thought you have had, feelings and unresolved traumas, other peoples personalities, thoughts and projections are recorded in your field. These imprints can block your access to wellbeing and happiness. Think about all of the negative
news media, movies, hospital experiences you have had. They are all recorded in your field. Consequently, these unresolved traumas can be used negatively by others (seen and unseen) to prevent your growth.

Emotional and Psychological Traumas:

Adverse childhood experiences, accidents, illnesses, unresolved past life traumas and other negative interactions with others can cause energetic soul loss. We must recover and retrieve our souls while in body so we are not held back in the after life. The more resolved we are with our organic life, the lighter and freer we are in the afterlife. Many ancient buddhic traditions contemplate and prepare for the continuation of their being. What we call death in western traditions is known (not believed) as continuation in eastern Vedic and Buddhist traditions. When we use our challenges as
opportunities for forgiveness and surrender, our frequency and heart energy can more easily contact our true self. We can travel beyond the H-Band noise /Mind field of all human suffering, beyond the belief systems band to infinity and beyond.

Upcoming Events

On July 2nd, the new moon and solar eclipse in Cancer is happening. At Kuadra, I will be performing a three day Moon and Star Gazing Ceremony in Fredericksburg Texas. If you are interested in joining us, please notify me as soon as possible.

What does this mean?

Not much to those who are unaware of energy and caught in delusions. For those who care about their energetic field, this is a good time for clearing and purification.

What can one do to purify and cleanse their energetic field during this time? I would like to share with you some old and very ancient techniques for clearing and purification.

Star Gazing

There is an ancient shamanic practice of star gazing, where shamans will meditate on a particular star for one hour for three consecutive days. This practice is done to dislodge negative thoughts and imprints holding in ones energy field.

Moon Gazing

The essential purpose behind the Quetzalcoatl Moon Gazing technique is to infuse the upper and lower regions of the third eye with the power of moonlight that ascends and then returns to become the power that combines with the individual as a nurturing heat that will automatically transform in comparison to the magic available. This moon gazing technique allows the practitioner to establish three areas of perception that solidify the attention corresponding to the moon within the body.
It will increase immunity and link one’s biorhythms harmoniously with the essence of the moon itself. As a wave caresses the shore, so will perception move in correspondence with the moon’s appearance within this reality.
This technique is also taught in conjunction with the Golden Lotus.

How is this performed?

You must choose a night with a full moon. Gaze up at the full moon, looking directly at it with a hard gaze. Gaze until it feels that the moon is beginning to ‘burn’ into you. Move the gaze to the moon’s periphery. This may feel like a few centimeters away.
Starting at the 12 o’clock position above the moon, gaze for a few moments, with the moon clearly visible in the periphery below, then shift the gaze to the 3 o’clock position… then the 6 o’clock… then the 9 o’clock… and then gaze once again directly at the moon for a little while.
Repeat the process two more times for a total of three rotations. End the third rotation at the 12 o’clock position then move directly down to the 6 o’clock position, so the moon immediately begins to ascend. Gaze at that position with the moon above in the periphery. Gaze at the 6 o’clock position until the moon begins to worm its way, like a snake, upward. From the 12 o’clock position the eyes should descend quickly, well below normal peripheral gazing. Once the eyes drop like this the spirit ascends to eternity, capturing the moon in its wake, then the moon wiggles up into the sky. There is a possibility for the surrounding stars to shift their positions dramatically when practicing this technique.


Plant Gazing

Plants have powerful energetic healing properties and are conscious beings. I conduct plant gazing exercises at the Botanical Gardens in San Antonio every Sunday. When we sit in the presence of a plant, through gazing and meditation we will begin to
experience the energetics and essence of the plant. Plant gazing takes months of practice and patience. It can help to open up the third eye awareness. I normally imagine myself as the plant in order to bring my frequency to match the plant. Since every thing we perceive is an aspect of us, we can contact the essence of the plant in us and thereby heal and expand our personal power.

Contemplative Meditation

Our doors are open to the public every Saturday from 4pm to 6pm for contemplative group meditation. Contemplative Practices cultivate a critical, first-person focus, sometimes with direct experience as the object, while at other times concentrating on
complex ideas or situations. Incorporated into daily life, they act as a reminder to connect to what we find most meaningful.
Contemplative practices are practical, radical, and transformative, developing capacities for deep concentration and quieting the mind in the midst of the action and distraction that fills everyday life. This state of calm centeredness is an aid to exploration of meaning, purpose and values. Contemplative practices can help develop greater empathy and communication skills, improve focus and attention, reduce stress and enhance creativity, supporting a loving and compassionate approach to life.


Service Spotlight

Our goal at Kuadra is noble. We are a truly holistic and transpersonal model working to assist our self and others in gaining personal power and freedom We are determined to uncover our deepest truths and connect the dots to our hidden skills and gifts. We use several energy based modalities to access the energetic strength of our clients which we believe translates to and intertwines with body, mind and spirit.

Be Empowered to Self Heal

Only you can truly heal yourself

We have been programmed to believe that we are powerless in the face of physical ill health and trauma. Human Beings are powerful entities made of organic and inorganic matter.

Our inorganic parts have powerful influences on our physical wellbeing and the wellbeing of others. Our photonic energy is meant to be preserved for our own growth and development and not to be wasted on negative beliefs, emotional reactions, controlling forces and parasitic energies.

We must take responsibility to change our environment, relationships and dynamics. Kuadra's approach can help you with that. However, this will depend on your level of determination and consistency.You will have the answers you need to take action and
heal yourself.

Healing is a conscious lifelong process. It requires patience and fortitude. The real reward comes at the point of transition to infinity and beyond.

Be Empowered!

Khadijat Quadri, LPC
This Newsletter is dedicated to my I-There.

The Positive Versus Negative Mindset

Our collective mind is vastly programmed to view things from a dualistic perspective. We have to see things in terms of good or evil, right or wrong and this is perhaps our greatest dilemma. With this type of mind, we will never know peace and for this very reason, our global culture is a never ending battle. Our highly emotional blueprint fuels the duality extremes that are dramatically outplaying in our world today.

Intensifying protests, racist ideologies, increasing volatile conflicts, vitriolic opinions spewed all over social media… the list is long.
We will never know harmony as individuals or as a global culture until we stop polarizing this way or the other and begin perceiving from wholeness. We have to look deeply into the ways our mind thinks in terms of opposites. For this internal dialogue is a microcosm of a larger problem.


Our Unity is a Potent Solution


Many of us on the spiritual path have done considerable work in integrating our ‘light and dark’ qualities, bringing an end to the war within us.

From this space of holistic embodiment, we are primed to serve as highly effective channels of the transforming universal light.
Our primary intention is to give greater empowerment to humanity’s shift into realized states of unified awareness. This may help to further dissolve the dualistic reflection of enduring conflict and “us” versus “them” mentalities. 

The Law of Polarity

Our collective mind is vastly programmed to view things from a dualistic perspective. We have to see things in terms of good or evil, right or wrong and this is perhaps our greatest dilemma. With this type of mind, we will never know peace and for this very reason, our global culture is a never ending battle. Our highly emotional blueprint fuels the duality extremes that are dramatically outplaying in our world today.


Intensifying protests, racist ideologies, increasing volatile conflicts, vitriolic opinions spewed all over social media… the list is long.

We will never know harmony as individuals or as a global culture until we stop polarizing this way or the other and begin perceiving from wholeness. We have to look deeply into the ways our mind thinks in terms of opposites. For this internal dialogue is a microcosm of a larger problem.

Our Unity is a Potent Solution


Many of us on the spiritual path have done considerable work in integrating our ‘light and dark’ qualities, bringing an end to the war within us.


From this space of holistic embodiment, we are primed to serve as highly effective channels of the transforming universal light.

Our primary intention is to give greater empowerment to humanity’s shift into realized states of unified awareness. This may help to further dissolve the dualistic reflection of enduring conflict and “us” versus “them” mentalities. 

Integrating our Dark and Light Side

Our mindset is programmed to focus only on the good aspects of our nature and work really hard to change or eliminate our dark side. We want to talk about the good things happening and avoid the bad or leave it to the privacy of a therapeutic setting. Unfortunately, we will create energetic imbalances that lead to pain, suffering and the eventual destruction of our self.


By denying our bad/ugly side, we will ultimately deny universal mechanics and the organic natural laws of creation. To unify polarity is to come into balance and unity between the pairs of opposite. As we bring balance to the inner polarities we exude that balance into the world, becoming a harmonizing and healing influence with everything around us.


We exude peace and contentment as we feel our sense of purpose being fulfilled. Our sense of connection and life purpose is radiated throughout all living things as we live within the synchronicity of our divine alignment with spirit.


Through consistent meditation, we will slowly develop the observer mind. We will not longer be controlled by the lower programmed mind and can now step back from it and observe it. From observation, we can then integrate all negative/positive thoughts and behaviors into the emptiness of the higher mind.


Human beings with balanced polarity have embodied a massively higher frequency to a Zero Point Field, with much larger auric systems which are capable to amplify and direct these balanced energetic forces into the environment. They can bring a strong force of balanced frequencies and perform incredible healing, manifestations and events.

Facing the Traumas of my Past

In my upcoming book, introduction to shamanic psychotherapy, I lay out the importance of facing our traumas and embracing the dark side of ourselves and our past. Working as a therapist meant delving deeply into my traumas of gang rapes, childhood abuse and atrocities from my birth country in Nigeria. I recalled the scars I still wear from being flogged naked and called an ogbanje/mamiwata child. Today in Nigeria, children identified by the oracles as ogbanje are now being tortured and killed. They are considered witches and villagers are afraid of their wrath and ability to affect villages and families in various ways.


With my abuse history, came a powerful store house of strength and creativity. It also increased my desire to understand and hold space for the healing of others. I give thanks for my abuse, for it made me determine to take my journey to self discovery. I can use my gifts to assist others through their journey.


Using a number of tools, such as galactic astrology, hypnotherapy and numerology, I can map the past lives, incarnated skill sets, energetic, starseed and angelic origins of my clients.

Morphic Resonance

Western cultures have become obsessed with the importance of individuality and self, to the neglect of the unity, connectedness, and interdependence of all of life. The result has been a pandemic of selfishness and greed. In his book, One Mind, Larry Dossey paints a picture of consciousness as nonlocal -- consciousness as unconfined to specific points in space and time, therefore unitary, eternal, and one.

The Collective Consciousness

Most of us have heard this word, but we have not really stopped to think what this truly means. Simply put, we do not have separate minds. What happens to us by the second, minute and day, is that we are receiving information that appears in our minds to be our own original thought. We think we generate thoughts by ourselves but what we are not seeing is how those thoughts might be OTHER PEOPLE'S thoughts.



When we hear negative thoughts in our heads, its because the collective mind is operating negatively and we are drawing from it and contributing to it. When we consider a person "bad" or we think we are doing something "good", we are drawing upon collective thinking. Consequently, you can do anything others are doing by virtue of collective resonance.

Our mind- What we call the intellect is drawing on some greater collective data bank but it is biased as personal so it appears as if we are having a conscious personal thought but it is actually coming from a greater whole. There are numerous scientific data, that points to the fact that we are all interconnected at the level of consciousness and we are not operating as an individual intelligence or thought.

We are Connected on a Level of Consiousness


The laws of nature is really the law of habits. The laws of magnetism, gravity, laws that govern chemistry and life which we are told came as a result of the big bang, maybe instead evolutionary and what is involved is simply habits of nature.

Each species has a collective memory and every individual draws upon and contributes to the collective memory of the species.

The theory of Morphic Resonance, first coined by scientist Rupert Sheldrake says that for example, if you train rats to learn a trick in one place, then rats all around the world will learn the same trick quicker. The rats around the world will pick up the new habit via morphic resonance.

In psychology, the idea of collective unconscious means that we all draw upon a collective memory and contribute to it.When we begin to contemplate our behaviors, decisions and actions, we will see that they do not belong to us but instead, we are acting from the collective unconscious.




A palm tree looks like a palm tree, a rice field looks the same and we look and act the way we do because of morphic resonance. Genes alone does not account for our behavior or appearance.

Our memory and intelligence does not come from our brain. The brain is just a receiver of information coming from the collective mind. There is reason to believe that we are not separate entities and when we hear certain things in our minds, it more than likely not a private thought.

Just as we are one human consciousness, there are other higher forms of consciousness that we can connect with and even begin to resonate. This requires psychological discipline. We have to begin to question and contemplate the mind.


This is the purpose of group therapy!!


Group Therapy stimulates the mind and challenges us to delve beyond our collective thinking. Without careful contemplation and observation of the mind, we will continue to operate from the current ego paradigms.

The Path of Neutrality is the way of Zen,
Christianity, Buddhism, Hinduism, Islam and
all Ancient Religions
The Map to Acceptance gives way to Love


Consciousness is limitless and we have access to infinite potentials of growth and expansion, if we can begin to take a more neutral position with the collective mind. Not judge or defend it, but rather become aware of it. Through awareness, we will no longer be pushed and pulled by it. From here, we can begin to see beyond physicality and contact our higher and more advanced nature.

Join us for Intuitive Development Course every Saturday From 4pm to 6pm!

For more information, visit www.holisticgroupsanctuary or call (210) 314-7687 to schedule.
Yours in Unity,

Khadijat Quadri, LPC, NCC, CHt

The Subject of Energy Healing

Addendum to the Subject of Energy


Dear Friends,

I would like to provide some additional information that came to me as I continued to contemplate this issue of energy giving and taking.
Energy is a very complex but simple phenomenon when you truly begin to grasp its true nature. We know everything is energy and everything runs on energy. Energy is constantly reshaping, absorbing, excreting and reconstituting itself. 
When you eat a banana, you turned the banana into a human being by merging its energy with yours. You can easily absorb the energy of a banana because its energy is neutral in nature. As we get to more complex energetic signatures such as animals, it becomes more difficult to blend an animals energy with yours because they possess a more unique consciousness. This is why many people who choose to concentrate on spiritual practice opt to not eat meat because they do not know how to process all of the emotions and memories in the animal once eaten.

Can People take each others Energy and Transfer Negativity?

Yes! of course! We know it when we say things like, "this is a waste of energy" or "this is draining my energy".

There are people who take other people's energy intentionally. When you go to a large gathering and everyone is focused on a preacher or performer, you are invariably giving your energy to this person. This may not be a conscious action by the performer or the audience but the act of taking and giving energy is occuring.

I have met people who intentionally take other people's energy for their own selfish gain. The problem with this behavior is that they cannot use the stolen energy. Each individual's energy has a unique configuration and pattern that may not blend with the takers energy. For instance, two trees of the same species may not look exactly the same.

Taking someone's energy is like getting a blood transfusion and you did not consider the fact that your blood type is not a match to theirs. At the end, the taker is carrying energy that they cannot absorb and it will soon begin to eat at them and cause ill health.

All Energy Comes from the Abyss


All creation began from the void. As the saying, in the beginning there was the void/abyss. The abyss is in you and your light was created by the abyss. Your light then created your body. Your energy signature is like that of a snowflake. It is unique to you.

If you fall sick, or need inspiration, or wisdom/guidance, you don't need to look for it in anyone or anywhere. Go back to the void. All wisdom is contained there. You will be replenished by the void. You will get any insight and knowledge you want and you will receive any abundance you require to complete your human journey.

The Cloak Of Light

When I intuit a person's energy field, I can tell if it is healthy or not. A healthy energy field has a clear and consistent pattern. The colors flow and the energy is moving freely in a synchronized way. An unhealthy energy field can look like the person is wearing a quilt. The colors are mixed and chaotic and you can tell that they have others peoples energies on them like patches on their cloak.

There are people who claim to be energy healers and perform reiki and other types of energy work and they do not understand what they are doing. They cannot get energy from anywhere and give it to you. They cannot give you their energy and they could be taking your energy and you don't know it. You may feel better right after the energy work but days later, you start to become tired and irritable.

When I do energy work with my clients, I go into a trance state and journey back to the abyss/void. I know that is where all energy comes from and because the void is one, I can contact the abyss in my client. The abyss hold perfect oneness and so I can activate the energy process in my client. Most people are not aware of their void because they have been brainwashed to focusing on external energy sources. Also, contacting the void is one thing, maintaining full trust and reliance on it, requires dedicated practice. The client may be conscious of what is happening and sometimes not. But either way, the information has been plugged into their minds to seek healing from within.

Join us for Intuitive Development Course every Saturday From 4pm to 6pm! 

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Khadijat Quadri, LPC, NCC, CHt

God is a Black Woman

Before you cringe at this statement, please take some time to hear me out.


Our western and global culture has been programmed to view black or darkness as bad, evil or negative.

We don't know where this belief comes from but for some reason we find ourselves fascinated and fearful at the same time. We have heard things like God is light and evil is the dark or bad and we invariably associate anything or anyone that closely aligns with this color as negative. Yes, black is the negative, it is the feminine aspect and the male is the positive light. The Buddhists refer to the yin/black and the Yang/White as two sides of duality both requiring the other for existence and creation.


A Near Death Experience


Many years ago, I heard a voice that told me I would die and I believed this voice so much so that I prepared for my physical departure from the body. I got life insurance and a will and even had the talk with my kids. Three months after I heard this voice, I was still alive waiting for my ill fated dead.


One morning, I asked to see where I would go once I die and in that instant I left my body. What I saw changed my life forever. I did not see my room or family as most people who have a near death experience describe, instead I saw myself surrounded by an egg shaped energy field that looked like a scrambled television screen and I was encased in it. As I touched this energy field, it felt like a membrane and I was locked in it. I pushed it and with a passion in me, I asked to see the real world and pushed really hard and got out. I was then flying with the speed of lightening through a transparent tube in what looked like the night sky. For what felt like seconds, ended up in complete darkness.


This darkness gave me an intense sense of bliss like I have never felt before. I also knew that if I crossed a threshold, I may never return back to the body, but my mind thought of my family and I was instantly thrown back to my body.

The Feminine Aspect of God- KALI


Since my near death experience, I came to realize the light that is me, operating my body and energy field and the dark from where I was birthed. I joke to myself that I went back to the great big vagina that birthed me. I saw that everything and everyone is this cosmic light birthed from this Black whole/darkness.


This cosmic black mother who birthed my light was the connection I had longed for all my life. The orgasm of joining my light with the black void. I experienced an all compassing love that held the wisdom of life's questions. I just had to strengthen my trust in it and by doing so, I trust myself.

Before the advent of western colonization in ancient India and other indigenous traditions, nature was respected, worshiped and revered. It was often depicted as the night or darkness. In Hinduism, represented by the image of a black woman. Kali was the feminine power of nature.


In the eyes of westerners, Kali is a goddess of the dark mind, body and soul, a mysterious goddess of death and destruction. The early colonizers found her image disturbing, grotesque and evil looking. Often depicted as an angry black woman with her tongue hanging out, blood thirsty and ready for battle, she would become the symbol of evil to Christianity and the connotation angry black woman continues to echo throughout the ages. However, the story of Kali is far more complex and far-reaching; she cannot be easily fitted into a typical western narrative of good verses evil, and in fact transcends both.


Kali demands ultimate knowledge. Her worshipers seek to heroically and boldly confront their darkness, their shadow, with eyes open. Fearless.


To those who have felt stereotyped by the image of Kali, I hope you will one day see that the dark, black woman is a symbol of strength and power. You will not come to this realization until you take the journey to the void and realize your true nature and the true nature of all living and non-living beings.


I often discuss in therapy the need for us to embrace ourselves wholly. To do so, we have to look into our darkness and not just our light. Harmony comes from total embrace. To love ourselves unconditionally, we have to accept all aspects of DARKNESS AND LIGHT.

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Embrace the Dark!


Khadijat Quadri, LPC, NCC, CHt

Transforming the Water Body

The Earth is a watery place. But just how much water exists on, in and above our planet? About 71 percent of the Earth's surface is water-covered, and the ocean holds 96.5 percent of all Earth's water. Water also exists in the air as water vapor, in rivers and lakes, in icecaps and glaciers, in the ground as soil moisture and in aquifers, and even all living organisms from humans to animals and plants have water.


In fact, water is of major importance to all living things. Some organisms hold 90 percent of its body weight in water and up to 60 percent of the human body is water ( The human brain and heart is composed of 73 percent water and the lungs hold 83 percent water.


We are liquid beings under the illusion of solidity. We are literally bags of water. Think of yourself as a water being. Life comes out of water. There needs to be water.


Water and Emotions are the same


It would seem that we live in a world where we have been generally conditioned to view emotions and feelings with skepticism and distrust. Deeming them to be wild, chaotic and unruly. Yet from a yogic perspective, our spirit is actually trying to communicate through our emotional body via the element of water, through our instincts and feeling awareness.


In essence, what we feel is more real than what we think. Water and emotions are one. Water is the ruler of instincts and feeling, it is feminine and yin. It rules the subconscious mind and is attached to our desires and creative sexual energy. It is influenced by the moon cycles. Water rules energy motions. Energy motions are waves of water based reactions tiding within the mind and body. Our emotional compass is the internal way finder to help us live an authentic and self-expressed life and protect us from negative influence. Being rational and cold is not superior to being emotional and hot.


Being emotional is a wonderful human gift, but falling under the trap of ’ emotionalism ’ is where a vast majority of problems begin. ‘ Emotionalism ’ is where we associate ourselves with our emotions rather than simply experiencing them. Hooking and deepening our false association to these emotions can lead to chronic and negative ways of being. Such as a wrathful and domineering person, a shy and anxious victim or a depressed and sluggish delinquent. We trap ourselves in our ’ emotionalism nets’ and rarely come unstuck.


We therefore understand that our emotions and our water are one of the same because energy flows through the water in our body. Blood flows, feeling flows, hormones flow, everything is liquid. By definition, water and emotion are one of the same, so if you wish to influence the current of the water within your cells as well as influencing your emotion, you have to work with the water element in your body. Your mind has various layers. The denseness layer of your mind is called mannas (sanskrit) so your manasic mind, can be controlled and influenced through the power of vibration, which is also sound. 

If water is the primary ingredient of all life on this planet, it is fair to say, that we are here to master the emotion. Modern daily life is often very restrictive and artificial. And the sense of blockage or feeling stuck or frustrated is often due to the water within us feeling trapped. When we do not flow, or if we feel stuck, our overall potential and performance does not move. This is where sound healing comes into play. Water always responds to sound.


Ancient traditions believed that it must sing to stay alive and commune with the divine. Modern day has become dis-enchanted. Today, singing is relegated to recordings from pitch sounds that are out of tune. Listening to sounds which are out of tune creates disharmony in the water body.


Our voice has been limited to communication simply to make meaning, judgement and label. We do not consider voice in itself as a vibration that steers up the water in us. I suspect that this is what the Tibetans Monks do. They chant to steer the energy body the same way you would rev your car.


What I am saying is pure logic and science. If we use our voice, not the sound recordings on a CD or iPhone but our own God given voice to chant without meaning, we will ultimately steer up the water body to the point where it begins to spark in light. If we can produce electricity by using energy and water, then we can also use energy from the vibration of voice, sound and frequency to produce light in the body. I also suspect from Dr. Emoto's studies of water, that self love is also another ingredient for transforming our bodies. Water responds both positively and negatively to our thoughts.


Rather than believing that daily emotions (both negative or positive) are outside of our control or influence, we should strive to be the masters of our own emotional compass and inventory. We can change or transmute our emotions through the power of water (hydration), chanting, meditation and breathing techniques and conscientiously going in to our emotions as they happen in real time to either overcome and heal it or to enjoy and expand it.


Ignoring or numbing your emotional experience is the same as ignoring the water in a fish tank or swimming pool, eventually it will get dirty and toxic. Flowing gracefully through the palate of emotions in your daily life means staying connected to your water element, your creativity and your sense of feeling. Know this to be a key to power and peace.

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May your water be healthy, clean and free!


Khadijat Quadri, LPC, NCC, CHt

Invoking Divine Mother From Within!

Dear Friends,

We did it! Congratulations to those who focused on a goal for 21 days. I am curious to learn how you feel and what new things you discovered about yourself. If you remember, I sent out a 21 day challenge to be present during the first weeks of October.

The energy was such that it reinforced your resonance making your feelings and experiences quite intense. Unfortunately, not many people are aware of their resonance or how their thoughts are affecting their lives and energy field. Being present requires practice similar to adopting a workout regimen.


We also incorporated the Amitabha Buddha Chant. The chant is synonymous with Pure Land Buddhism. Repeating the chant produces a “mind state” — the peaceful mind of a realized being.


I have been chanting Amitabha Mantra for the last two years and still a student of the Sutra of Immeasurable Life teachings. What I personally experienced from chanting Namo Amituofo was the feeling of absolute bliss and harmony permeating my mind and body. I am able to function as a channel through which Amitabha may send his healing, enhancing, nourishing energy to all other living beings. If there is any merit in my work, it is because the Celestial Amitabha Buddha is expressing itself as me.


Mahishasura Mardini Stotram

Meditation and Chant for Divine Mother Energy

For the coming month of November, we will focus on practicing and chanting the Mahishasura Mardini Stotram.

This mantra is very powerful for activating the divine mother energy within us. The word Shakti means divine energy/force/power, and Durga is the warrior aspect of the Divine Mother/Brahman(Supreme Absolute Godhead).

As a goddess, Durga's feminine power contains the combined energies of all the gods. Each of her weapons was given to her by various gods: Rudra's trident, Vishnu's discus, Indra's thunderbolt, Brahma's kamandalu, Kuber's Ratnahar, etc.

This chant was composed by the great sage Adi Shankaracharya some time around 810 AD. This chant is sung in praise of Goddess Chamundeshwari and describes the way She destroyed many demons.


I enjoyed invoking the blessing of this mantra in dance.


Below is the sanskrit for practice. I am excited to learn this Mantra!


Why Bother to Chant in Sanskrit?


Chanting Sanskrit stirs up your energy. After chanting a mantra, when you remain still, you will feel yourself as energy. Eventually this awareness of you as energy leads you to its juxtaposition i.e. to you as stillness. The more you remain in this inner stillness that the chanting gave you access to, the more you will feel less separateness, or put in another way, the more you will feel unity.

Growing up in Nigeria back in the early 1970's, singing and chanting was a natural part of life. There was a song for every event, situation and interactions in daily life. Yoruba which was the natural language of my tribe carried strong vowels sounds (I suppose this is why I enjoy Sanskrit because it also carries heavy vowel sounds). My father was Muslim and I listened to the five daily prayers of incantations along with the dance and songs of my grandmother who was a shaman. She saw the energies of plants and animals and spoke to them.


When I began my conscious spiritual journey ten years ago, I discovered my God sound during deep meditation and have since used it to invoke the universe for healing. I chant in Sanskrit without particular interest in the meaning of the chant but rather its resonance with my energy field and its ability to draw energy from the Void/Stillness.


Today, I want to reintroduce the extraordinary power of group chanting into our daily lives.


Chanting and singing bring joy and ecstasy back into our lives, by allowing us to acknowledge and become part of a power and dimension beyond our own — to praise and participate with the divine. It can also improve our health by reducing stress levels. Humming as we meditate can stop our mind wandering on to past problems and future fears.


Chanting seems to stimulate the emission of endorphins in the brain, which give rise to enhanced awareness, profound calm and deep meditative states. Socially, it creates a sense of community. People have always sung and chanted when they needed to work together. But in the West singing has been marginalized. Singing in a group helps to overcome the isolation of modern society.

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A Riveting Exploration of Pure Intention

October 2018

Dear Friends,


Last Saturday’s “journey to self-discovery group was riveting!


We began with our usual introductions and then a 30-minute meditation with 4-8 hertz Binaural Theta waves sound underneath nature sounds and gongs. In this state, the brain is encouraged to follow and produce more theta brainwaves. The result of which was deep relaxation, heightened intuition and subtle energetic/spiritual phenomenon.


We then delved into the topic of Pure Intention – what it means and how it affects our lives. Here is a summary of our discussion:

There have been thousands of scientific research and religious studies on the law of attraction. You have heard the saying “what you think you become, you are the company you keep, and you attract what you believe”. Therefore, paying attention to our thoughts and intentions are important for manifesting the life we want. -----This is only a half truth.


The motivators and teachers of these philosophies often fail to mention the role the subconscious mind plays in manifesting our current reality. We can affirm and claim what we want from our logical mind, however, it is what is sitting in the subconscious mind that manifests in our lives. If we truly want to recreate our life and reality, we need to delve deeper into the inner recesses of the subconscious mind.


What then is the subconscious mind?


 The function of your subconscious mind is to store and retrieve data. Its job is to ensure that you respond exactly the way you are programmed. Your subconscious mind makes everything you say and do fit a pattern consistent with your self-concept, your “master program.” All your habits of thinking and acting are stored in your subconscious mind. It has memorized all your comfort zones and it works to keep you in them.


Your subconscious mind causes you to feel emotionally and physically uncomfortable whenever you attempt to do anything new or different or to change any of your established patterns of behavior. The sense of fear and discomfort are psychological signs that your subconscious has been activated. But it’s been working to establish those behavior patterns in the background long before you’ll ever notice such feelings.


  • We contemplated the possibility that the problems of humanity is actually the programming of the subconscious. From the conscious or logical mind, we can speak of what is ideal, however the subconscious drives will supersede our desires for happiness and success. This is because the subconscious says “no” to everything that is not in your programming.
  • From an early age, society has been working on your subconscious right from birth. We learned to read and write through daily practice, and repetition and we became good at it. However, we also learned many other things such as fear, hate, death, anger, guilt and so on. We also became good at these negative things. Children’s brainwave levels operate consistently at Theta and Alpha states, making it very easy to program the minds of children.
  • We contemplated the possibility that we are operating in an illusion/matrix reality even though we have been completely programmed to believe in its reality. We know logically that there is more out there and we are not alone, however, the subconscious mind will tell us “no”. We explored the possibility that the only way to be freed from chasing a life of illusions (many people by now will realize that nothing in this reality will bring any form of lasting peace) is to re-program the subconscious mind using the same techniques used to program it in the first place.
  • We considered the use of Neuro-linguistic Programming (NLP) and Hypnosis, however, we contend that in other for it to be as effective, we will have to practice these techniques daily and consistently. Just as how we learned to read and write.
  • We considered the practice of taking responsibility and forgiveness. If the subconscious mind is the problem, then we can no longer blame anyone, project or deny our emotional problems. We have to face the unhealthy behaviors and events in our lives by taking responsibility. Forgiving others involved, claiming them in innocence and forgiving ourselves. By practicing this type of forgiveness we recognize that the issue is the subconscious mind not the people involved.
  • We considered coming up with short affirmations or goals for our subconscious mind. We will need to begin every affirmation with “I AM……..”. The subconscious mind learns through repetition and remembers short phrases. There is the 21-90 rule that says that it takes 21 days to change a habit and 90 days to change a lifestyle.
  • We will recognize the subconscious when we have triggers of anger, painful memories and irrational fears about the past and future just to name a few. When we feel negative emotions coming up, we bring the thoughts and feeling to the present moment, sitting and breathing with it, crying with it, whatever emotions come up as we repeat the phrase “I am the one who is…….”.
  • We considered the need for consistency. It took years of practice to become negative and it will take years to reverse the mind to become positive and possibly transcendental in nature. A transcendental mind is a mind that sees and thinks beyond good or bad. Transcendence is the state where the mind has moved beyond everything other than itself. That means it has transcended all kinds of activity, small and big, and it has settled down in its own authority, in its own sovereignty, into the unbounded dignity of its own intelligence. And in this state, transcendental consciousness turns out to be a lively field of all possibilities.


  • We explored the importance of consistency in meditation, affirmation and contemplation as key components for de-programming and re-programming the mind.


  • We explored the topic of compassion and how we may transform humanity when we transform ourselves. Through the transformation of our energy field and consciousness, we create a path for others to consider.


  • Our true intentions come from our subconscious mind and our energy follows this point of focus. If we truly want to change our lives, we must contend with the subconscious mind.


  • Group meditations will create a powerful coherent influence in the collective consciousness and neutralize built-up stress and tension in the world, creating an environment of progress and peace.

In conclusion, we realize there is no quick fix to realizing and maintaining pure intentions. To live a life devoid of fear, we have be determined to take complete power over our mind and take responsibility for the world we see. Our goal is to create Heaven on Earth, and we are taking practical steps to accomplish it.


We meet on Saturdays from 4pm to 6pm at Kuadra’s Holistic Group Sanctuary!

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August 2018

Holistic Group Sanctuary targets individuals interested in learning about themselves on a deep psychological and spiritual level. We offer majestic tools for healing that includes meditation, contemplation and reflective work. Our unique group practice creates an environment that stabilizes and clarifies group attention. We can then explore the nature of mind, experience, and reality. Holistic Group therapy is grounded in Eastern meditation and Western phenomenology and weaves ancient and modern tools for understanding and maintaining a healthy mind. It supports practitioners interested in interweaving private and shared meditative experience. Despite centuries of scientific research and philosophical explorations, we have to agree that the nature of the mind, emotions and the self is yet to be fully understood. Our educational and cultural systems do little to provide the tools for understanding, clarifying and maintaining body, mind and emotion.


Our groups comprise of contemplative therapy, sound healing, mantra therapy and paths to enlightenment. Sessions are weekly for two hours and cost $50. Less than the price of getting your nails done or a massage, you can opt for consistent happiness and peace of mind irrespective of your circumstance.

April 2018

Seven Keys to Consistent Peace


Achieving and maintaining consistent peace of mind is not an easy endeavor. It is a life time of practice and every moment presents to us the choice between peace and fear.
Amidst the chaotic energies of fear and propaganda permeating communities, it would be near impossible not to feel the anger and fear of others and not to feel called to face yours as well.
Here are some major keys I have found for maintaining peace of mind.



The most important key to consistent peace is to learn the art of being present at all times. Being present is quite simple. All you have to do at every moment is to gently remember to bring yourself back to the present moment by focusing on something that occurs at that moment. If you can see it, hear it, taste it, touch it or smell it, you can be present with it.


From the moment you wake up in the morning, spend a few minutes being present with your breathing. When you are having a shower, be present with the warmth of the water, the smell of the soap or the way you cleanse your body. Be present as you eat your breakfast. Be present as you drive to work. When you notice you have drifted off into the world of thought, memory and imagination, bring yourself back to the present moment.

Presence is the only way you can become unconditionally loving and accepting of yourself. It allows you to become fully aware and accepting of all those things you would like to change about yourself. You are present with the qualities like such jealousy, possessiveness, control, judgment, helplessness, inadequacy, blame, guilt, uncertainty, unworthiness, arrogance, expectation, resentment, anger, sadness, frustration, just to name a few.


The desire for change is a subtle rejection of these qualities, which in turn produces a feeling of need and more sadness or anger. With needy feelings,  you will not be able to accept yourself unconditionally. The key is to become aware, identity, acknowledge and confess all of these qualities, as they arise within you. Hide absolutely nothing from yourself. Accept and acknowledge all of these things with love and compassion. The more you acknowledge and accept whatever arises without judgment, the more you will relax and be released out of the past into deeper and deeper levels of Presence.



The second key to awakening to peace is to come into complete relationship with your feelings. This is only possible as you become present. There are many emotions from the past, which you repressed for good reason. But now they want to be released, so it is necessary to find an opportunity to feel and express repressed emotions like anger, hurt, pain and sadness.


Simply be present with the feelings whenever they arise within you. Allow them to have an authentic expression, but do not get stuck on the story is woven into the feelings. The feelings are trapped energies from the past, which are projecting onto the present. Do not try to get rid of these feelings. That would be a judgment of them. Do not blame anyone or thing or situation, that would be avoidance and projection- the egos greatest device. Simply allow them to complete their journey through you. Once released, they will be gone forever.


It is important to take full responsibility for your emotional reactions. No one can make you angry unless you have anger repressed within you from your past. No one can hurt you unless you have hurt repressed within you from your past. As these repressed emotions are liberated from you, you will begin to feel a level of love, peace, and freedom that you did not know was possible.




The third key to consistent peace is to own and acknowledge every aspect of who you have become. You are saying, “this is me, this is who I have become. I am possessive and controlling.” Or, “I am blaming. I get angry when I don’t get my own way.” Or, “I will not allow myself to get too close to people because I am afraid I might get rejected.” 


By confessing and owning what you have become, with love, acceptance, and compassion, it is released. And you are freed to the level of Presence where none of these qualities exist. They cannot exist because they are not a part of the true nature of Being. They exist only at the level of mind.

Right Relationship with the Ego


The fourth key to consistent peace is to come into right relationship with the ego. The ego is not the enemy. It is your friend and protector in a painful world where no one is truly present. Once you know the ego’s true role in your life, you will come to appreciate it. You will befriend it, and gradually the ego will relax and it will allow you to be more present. As you become established in Presence, the ego will surrender and its role in your life will be transformed.

Don’t Look Outside of Yourself


The fifth key is to bring conscious awareness to all the ways that you lose yourself in others. If you look to others for love, acceptance or approval, you are losing yourself in them. If you fear judgment or rejection from others, then you are losing yourself and you are giving away your power and your freedom. To awaken to peace is to come back to yourself, and to release yourself from entanglement in others.

Take Full Responsibility


The sixth key to peace is to accept full responsibility for yourself. This will release your mind from the world of expectation, resentment, blame, and guilt. It will lead you to "total freedom".


Let Go


The final key to awakening is to let go. Dance, celebrate, lose control!

February 2018

The Healing Power of RAM


One of the most potent medicines of all is the sound of RĀM. Many will, of course, be wondering how a sound (like RĀM) can be a healing medicine. The sound of RĀM has many qualities such as active goodness; positive energy; goodwill; courage; compassion; helpfulness; service to all; intelligence; wisdom; bliss; peace; constructive activity; the presence of God; Enlightenment; perfection; fearlessness; physical, mental and spiritual strength; righteousness. 

To discover the magic power of RĀM, is to understand something of the Primordial Language of Sound (also called the Sacred Language or the Divine Language). The ancient mystics of many centuries ago, discovered that the Universe is actually made out of sound-atoms. When they went into the core of Cosmic Consciousness they arrived at the Source of Creation, they discovered a tremendous energy-field that in various languages came to be called “God as Sound” in various languages. They discovered that all life, all beings/entities/planets come from a mighty Sea of Sound that is the Sound of God or, if you like, the Name of God. The Ancients also discovered that within this tremendous, all-potent Sound there are seventy-two Seed Syllables, powerful Sound-Vibrations that produce every possibility of manifestation, ability and development imaginable by the human mind and beyond. These make up the Primordial Language of Sound, and one of these sounds is RĀM, which is particularly powerful and beneficial to the human species on this planet. Remember that RĀM is more than just the sound you make when you say it. The physical sound is just a microscopic atom of RĀM. RĀM is a stream of the Sound that comes from the universal reverberation of the creative process and descends through the planes, becoming the Bright Light-Vibration of Nirvāa, the Pure Light-Vibration of the Buddhic dimensions, the Sounding-Light Vibration of the causal dimensions, the subtle Sound-Vibrations of the Mental and Astral Worlds and finally the physical sound of the physical world. So how does this relate to healing? The sound of RĀM sets up a rhythmic vibration on whichever level you use it. When you use it on the physical level (when you intone it aloud), it sets up a rhythmic vibration in your physical body that harmonizes the atomic structure of the body and gives it physical health. When you take the sound of RĀM inside (when you intone it mentally), it sets up a rhythmic vibration in the etheric body that evens out the disjointed etheric currents, your own life-force, so your etheric body becomes healthy. 

As you take the sound further inside by internal repetition and reach the Astral Plane, it evens out the vibration of your astral body, so your negative emotional vibrations—depression, hate, anger, violence, self-pity—are neutralized. When you go further inside and reach the Mental Plane, all your negative thoughts are also neutralized as your mental body begins to vibrate more harmoniously. And then finally on an even higher level, when you can start working with it internally on the causal level (the Soul level), it will harmonize your causal body and therefore stop the release of negative karma. So, the sound of RĀM is the most amazing, all-purpose medicine ever invented, and it is applicable to everybody, regardless of religion or background, because it works with the Science of Sound, by Sound-Vibration. This is also preventative medicine. If you intone and meditate on RĀM regularly, it will help your nature adjust itself to Cosmic Law because it produces a state of harmony in whatever realm it is being used in. It puts your causal body in harmony with the Causal World, your mental body with the Mind World, and so on down to your physical body. But if you are one of those perfect specimens who are always in total health physically, emotionally and mentally, then RĀM is preventative, by maintaining you in that state of harmony and keeping you from attracting negative, disease-producing factors in the first place. 

All diseases are wrong vibrations, whether they are wrong vibrations in your physical body, etheric body, astral body, mental body or causal body. Wrong vibrations cause disease. Only that which is working in harmony with the Cosmos produces health or is in the state of health, beauty, truth and order. So, when we have any kind of a disease it is simply a disharmony in the part that is ill. If your physical body is ill, you must have done something physically that produced disharmony. If you are emotionally sick, then you must have done something emotionally that produced disharmony. And if you have a mental illness, you must have done something mentally that was not in harmony with the Cosmic Law. This also includes your karma, because you must have done something disharmonious previously to precipitate the karma you have now. 

The magic, or the beauty, of RĀM is that it produces harmony inside you, and the more harmony it produces inside you, the more it neutralizes the negative state or situation you are in. And when your whole being is in a state of harmony, not just your immediate personality expression, you will be in harmony with the Cosmos itself. Most people are living out of tune with themselves and have accepted that life is a state of disharmony. Very few people think about why life on this planet is such a mess; they just accept that it’s messy and there is nothing they can do about it, except to blame the government or God. The mass consciousness does not realize that the planetary situation need not be as it is, that it is caused by billions of human beings producing disharmony on every level, in their thoughts, feelings and physical actions. 

The Ego Onion

November/December 2017

How to Release the Layers & Improve Your Life


Life is challenging at times. And, for some people the challenges happen more often.


So, how do you overcome them and flow through life more easily? 


Imagine for a moment that your heart is underneath the center of an onion. Each thin layer covers that onion’s center.


Those layers represent your preconceived beliefs (like beliefs about how you think things should be), the conditions you apply to life, and the social constructs (such as religion), as well associetal rules and norms you believe and hold to be true.


The more onion layers that cover your heart center—or the God within you, the more difficult it is for you to hear your true calling.


In this analogy, the layers represent the ego, hence the ego onion. And, they prevent us from moving forward in the direction of our spiritual map (or our life’s destiny). To move forward in life more easily, you must let go of these “ego onion” layers. Then you can hear your heart and move in the direction of your intended path. 


The Soul’s Creation & Purpose

Your soul’s infinite Divine intelligence created you at conception from a single cell that multiplied into 100 trillion more. Those cells are associated with a set of energetic bodies which the physical body coalesces from. Your soul arrived in your physical body from that first cell, and that’s why a baby is such a miracle. 


During this human construction, your soul creates an ego personality. The personality is how your soul expresses itself and crosses into the earthly or physical reality to experience life in a particular way. But once life is set in motion,the Creator cannot interfere with how you choose to live because of free will. Once in your body, you choose how to engage with life. 


The problem is the ego onion layers prevent people from hearing the messages from our inner God center, which tell us our soul’s purpose (or spiritual map). This is the contract you have with the Creator. Its deepest desire is to align the earthly self with your soul’s spiritual map, which is the real reasonwe incarnate on Earth. 


How do you know if you’re achieving your soul’s purpose?


You’re meant to bring gifts to the world by the nature of who you are. However, those gifts are often times realized when you experience a challenge or difficulty. The trouble is many people avoid the challenges and difficult times. They also avoid seeing the layers of beliefs (their ego onion), because they believe what society expects of them and behave in that prescribed way. So, they don’t deal with their ego onion issues 


Instead, they judge those things, blame others or themselves for what happens to them, feel bad or guilty, and/or project those feelings onto others by becoming angry with them. People also avoid the ego layers and the difficulties by numbing the hardships consciously and unconsciously with alcohol, drugs, shopping, sex, gambling, and so forth. Or, they simply avoid challenges altogether by not talking about them or addressing them head on and changing. 


These distractions only cover up the truth. And, this is the way we separate from our emotions and keep our hearts tightly sealed by the ego onion layers. Society’s messages also don’t help, especially maxims like, “Suck it up.” As a society, we don’t acknowledge emotions or actively learn how to deal with them. 


But, this is not entirely ours or society’s fault. Avoiding difficulties also happens because the ego generates fears when facing adversity. For you to achieve your soul’s purpose (and for your life to happen) you must face challenges, assess them from a deeper level, and be consciously aware of them and what they mean in your life. But, the ego mind tries to block you from feeling, and by doing so blocks you from healing from your karmic challenges. You can overcome this, but to do so you need to feel the pain and discomfort of those challenges. Of course, that is not fun.


The Ego’s Fears & Perceptions


Unless you’re hunted down by a huge lion or being shot at or robbed, your mind (through the ego) creates imagined fears. But if you understand that fear is only in the mind, then you can recognize that you’re an integral part of all that is (including creating those fears).You can then accept the threat as the ego’s fear in the mind, instead of believing a real, external threat is present.

There is also a difference between understanding and perception. Perception is an ego device, but understanding produces a change in our soul’s vibration, which gives rise to a shift in consciousness. This type of understanding comes when we take an issue into deep meditation and contemplation.  


The issue is that people have been programmed to unconsciously project God as being a phenomenon outside of themselves, which misdirects the healing process to the ego. By recognizing God as the real self within, you can go beyond the ego onion layers and into the deeper levels of the mind.


To align with the soul's purpose, you must overcome ego based fears and perceptions by bringing consciousness to them. And, the first step is to feel the negative emotions generated by your life’s challenges. This is difficult, because the last thing your ego wants to do is feel. The more you consciously feel what’s bothering you in life, the more easily those fears can be healed and transformed layer-by-layer into positive qualities.


This is how you peel off the layers of your ego onion. Each time you feel and let go, you release one of those layers. Then you can move on to the next layer, and the next, and the next until you reach your heart center or the God light within. 


The Ego’s Illusionary Technique


When our lives begin, we believe things just happen to us randomly. But as we mature, we notice some patterns repeat themselves and understand there is an order to our life. The problem is some people go through life dealing with one crisis after another (repeating a pattern) and ask, “Is there deeper meaning in all this chaos?”


Many souls incarnate in earthly bodies but never manifest their spiritual destiny, because once living life on Earth, they become imprisoned by fears in their minds. They become too afraid to step out of the norm. And because of it, they repeat the same life experiences until the soul achieves what it came to do. 


This is the ego’s illusionary technique—creating this mirage of imaginary challenges within the mind, and it is repeated over and over during a lifetime. And, it makes learning on Earth such a slow and arduous processand the societal catch phrase, "Life is hard and then you die,"so believable for some.


We can’t let the ego do that to us. So, if you’re experiencing something like this, know there is indeed an underlying plan, a carefully designed spiritual map the soul uses to create your life in every moment. It’s a matter of having an awareness of the plan and aligning to it by listening to your heart. 


Divine Healing Requires 5 Things


Divine healing has only five requirements. First, you must identify the issue. Second, you must have the courage and willingness to face the polarities and/or contradictions within. Third, you must take responsibility for the issue (and avoid blaming other people or things). Fourth, you must forgive yourself as in realization of karmic illusions in the mind and claim others involved as innocent. And fifth, you must surrender the issue to your higher self (or God). 


The point in which the onion is released from us is by divine grace or the higher self. Just as a broken arm cannot fix itself without divine grace, the ego cannot be released without it as well. The key is that the higher self is invited to heal us through our acknowledgement, forgiveness and surrender to it. 


To find the source of your ego onion issues, you must feel the feelings you don’t want to feel. (In other words, what you feel, you can heal.) What makes healing work challenging is when a person numbs, buries, or avoids the issues. Sometimes this happens due to survival instincts in abusive situations, but even more so is because we have learned to control our emotions with our prefrontal cortex. So, we have to let go of that control, allow ourselves to feel the pain, and then allow ourselves to heal. That’s when the energy shifts. This is why feeling sadness, anger, jealously, and frustration from hardships is important.


Through identifying the issue, bringing the feelings to conscience awareness—and feeling it, and having a desire and willingness to heal that pain, you can begin to release yourself from the ego onion. When you clear the emotions, you have more access to your higher self. This access is what the Buddha calls the antakarana (or life force). And, it expands as we release the ego onion layers. In that release, you’re able to feel and understand what your soul needs to express in this lifetime.


There are gifts to be found in your struggles.


When you experience a challenge or difficulty in life, know that there is a beautiful gift to be found in that pain. Those are the soul’s gifts—the gold you’re to bring forth to share with this world. And, this is an integral part of why your soul came to Earth through your physical body. When you start to claim your gifts, your life will truly unfold. 


To uncover these gifts, you must clear a number of karmic patterns by looking deeply at your fears, because your soul’s energy is transmitted through the limitations of your ego onion. So, feeling in order to heal is important and takes a considerable amount of work—and perhaps is the reason many avoid it. But, it is worthwhile, as it’s key to living a fulfilled and happy life. 


The turning point, though, in your life is releasing enough of the ego onion layers so that you can begin to feel your heart. Then you’ll know the right action to take next. This is because your heart is the connection to your soul’s guidance system, which aligns you with your spiritual map—your life’s destiny. The more you develop your ability to feel, surrender, and trust your spiritual map (or signature) the more gracefully and easily your life will flow. So, if life is hard for you, it’s because you’re not following your spiritual map.


Psychotherapy and transpersonal psychology is really about helping people deal with the ego onion layers—one layer at a time. It is identifying the painful feelings and true source of those feelings, actually allowing yourself to feel the pain from those life challenges and accepting them, and having the desire and willingness to heal from those things. At KUADRA, I help people through the process using several different advanced integrative therapy techniques, including hypnotherapy, Reiki meditation, intuitive counseling, and behavioral mapping. These techniques help make releasing the ego onion layers easier. It is also a safe wayto feel the painin the sanctuary of my office space.


Wishing you enhanced physical, emotional, and spiritual strength,

Khadijat Samadhi
KUADRA Counseling & Consulting, LLC


P.S. If you need assistance peeling away your ego onion layers (i.e. overcoming a deepfear or challenge) and employing daily lifestyle practices to help you listen to your heart (your inner guidance system)and discover your unique skills, talents, or spiritual gifts, call the office and make an appointment today, (210) 314-7687.

The Power of Acceptance

October 2017

As a counselor, I regularly hear about the challenges people face. Sometimes there are concerns about the unknown and safety after a tragic event—like the recent shooting in Las Vegas. But, often, the challenges are about relationships and acceptance of what is in those relationships. 


The world is full of chaos, and most of us want order. So, we reject chaos. However, our souls, which temporarily inhabit our human bodies, are pure awareness. This means to experience complete peace or nirvana we must accept everything in life as it is … which can be very difficult at first.

Ancient wisdom tells us to embrace all of life. Buddha, for example, says to embrace the dualities of life—the good things and the bad, what we like and what we don’t like. You can’t have one without the other, so instead he says to become an observer of this “game” of life.


Our bodies, though, have been conditioned to perceive life through the five fundamental human senses: seeing, tasting, touching, hearing, and smelling. As humans, those senses may at times prevent us from tapping into the dimensions that exist beyond their physical scope. The connection to the unseen helps us to understand and accept the dualities of life.If we become too focused on the conscious part of living—what we experience through the five senses—then the body is like a virtual-reality suit. Here’s what I mean … everything we experience from the five senses is converted into electrical impulses that formulate perceptions inside the brain. But at the conscious, five senses perception level of experiencing life, the energy vibrates at a lower and denser frequency. At that frequency, it is difficult or impossible for you to receive intuitive messages from The One Mind (i.e. God). So, if you want to experience a higher consciousness and a peaceful, nirvana-like state, then you must train your mind to become more
aware of this game and accept life’s dualities. When you do this, the brain will begin functioning at a higher vibration frequency, which makes it easier to accept those dualities.


In the evolutionary transition of humans, we are learning how to live from this multidimensional perceptive state—to accept the physical senses, but to also sense and accept the information we receive from The One Mind or that gut feeling or God-like sense you might feel. But, it can only happen if the brain is unified with the Higher Mind of our soul, and your energy is vibrating at a higher frequency.


Are your emotions hungry?

Life is full—just as it is. Your life truly doesn’t need more. One way to apply this Higher Mind concept is to simply enjoy the daily functions of your life. You won’t become enlightened by eating dinner, but that doesn’t mean you shouldn’t eat dinner. The problem lies in emotional hunger. If your emotions are not accepting of the dualities—the things you like and don’t like, then you will desire things, i.e. hunger.


Relationships are a great example of people trying to fulfill an emotional hunger, particularly sexual or marital relationships. If you believe the relationship will give you something or make you happy, then one day you may realize it is not fulfilling that emotional hunger. What we refer to as peace, joy, and love exists on a higher level of awareness, which is that of the Higher Self or soul level.

Acceptance for all the parts of life and seeing them simply as they are is a powerful solution for the emotional hunger. This is because the part we don’t want to accept feels empty emotionally to us. In the example of marital relationships, if you look for someone to love you and fill the void of your emotional hunger you may attract someone who is also looking for the same thing.


The problem is the void you feel (the emotional hunger) is really the unacceptance of some part of yourself. If you loved that part, you may not feel the need to be with someone. What happens is you end up expecting the other person to love the part of you that you yourself don’t love—and they may expect you to do the same for them.  So, you get married and live “happily” ever after, but each of you will still feel that emotional hunger. It hasn’t been fulfilled…because you have not accepted that part you’ve
deemed unlovable about yourself. In the end, you both will still be emotionally hungry, and perhaps unhappy with the relationship you’ve created together.


Why do people choose to be in a romantic relationship?



Many believe a soulmate exists for everyone. Sexually, the soul technically cannot mate with anyone or anything. The soul also does not need to. That is because the soul is absolute and limitless. Humans mate to continue the species or to fill an emotional hunger. But, a person’s soul does not need a mate or to mate.


People choose romantic relationships, because they want to fulfill an emotional hunger. They may want their body to feel better or experience an erotic release, which is referred to as sexuality. People also want their minds to feel better, which translates to companionship. And, people want their emotions to feel better, which can be called love. Emotional compatibility makes romance very beautiful and sweet. However, that is as far as it goes.


Experiencing a good physical compatibility, companionship, and a strong sense of love in many ways can make your life wonderful. But if you are willing to look at all this carefully and sincerely, you will see there are limitations and anxieties that naturally follow such an arrangement. It is natural for a human being to want these things. However, there are limits to the relationship, especially when you cannot love the whole of yourself and expect the other person to do so.

The nature of marital relationships is like being limited to a specific area, like a garden. As beautiful as the garden is, you must live in just that garden area. If you are unwilling to stay in that one place, then that
relationship will inevitably become suffocating. Many humans want to experience a marital relationship, but it is not a matter for the soul. All connections you make on this human level relate to the body, mind, or emotions.


The more you accept all of yourself, the more you’re able to accept others. Thinking back to the limitations … if you’re expecting the other person to love the part of you that you don’t love, then the relationship at some point may become ugly. During those times, people also tend to lie to themselves about the reality of the relationship. It is better to be honest with yourself and accept that both you and your partner have limitations regardless of if that person can or cannot do the same. It doesn’t matter what he or she does, you must do what you feel is best for you and come from a place of acceptance and self-awareness yourself. You have to accept you—all of you—and in that gesture, you can accept the all of someone else. 

What you do with yourself involves your soul. When you accept yourself sincerely and honestly, you will see life clearly and with less melodrama. In this way, you will quickly become less entangled with another person. This makes you more available to receive the grace or the light of paramatman, i.e. The Higher Mind or God.


In our soul state, we are only pure awareness.
The Hindus say we become spontaneous and intuitive when the Higher Self (our soul) is in charge of our life. And, the more aware you become the more you realize that society values hold less meaning to you. The soul feels peace and love. If you’re working to achieve something that is not prompted by the soul to do, then you won’t feel that peace or love through those activities. You may have moments of peace or love, but it will not be at a deep soul level—and it will be short lived. This does not mean you should do nothing. Instead, think about the motivation and intention of what it is you do want to do. Do you feel propelled by something greater to do something or be in a particular relationship? Or, are you coming from a place of “I should do” something, because somebody or some societal rules say that you should? It’s important to be honest with yourself about if you’re doing something because you care what someone else thinks or because you feel a calling from the soul to do it.


The Zen Approach to Life

When new Buddhist monks are in training, they desire to stop desiring …until they realize that in and of itself is desiring something (i.e.wanting to stop desiring is a desire). So, the more you desire something, the more you’re coming from a place of suffering—because you lack something or feel a void. However, the more aware you become of this, the more you can become an observer and accept all that you experience and feel in life, void and all.


We each have God within us. Life is about loving all the parts of yourself, and in that process, we find the God within us. It is the intimate relationship with the self.


The world is filled with people and society rules that want to tell you who you are and what you should do and think. Buddhist monks, though, suggest getting away from all that world noise and instead, meditate. In that mediation, you can find yourself and be one with those empty places—those emotional hungers you don’t want to love. It’s the chaos … we all want to rid ourselves of. But, it is important to quiet our minds through meditation and accept those feelings of chaos and emptiness.


There is only one answer to problems—acceptance. In our minds, we’ve been trying to change the world in one way or another. We are telling others what they should do as much as we are being told by others what to do with our lives. You may find a solution, but only until a new problem surfaces. Each time we look for solutions, we really are trying to find ourselves. There is only one problem in life and that is how to accept the parts of ourselves we do not want to accept.


You don’t need to change yourself at all. The anger or sadness you may feel is really associated with not accepting yourself. When others do not accept us, it is a reflection of them not accepting themselves. Once you can accept yourself completely, the self becomes pure awareness. We accept our intuition … and we can accept all of us, all of others, and all parts of life. In that acceptance, we can experience a closeness with the Higher Mind (i.e. God) and receive the language of that light intelligence. At that point, you become an observer of the “game” of life—and experience peace.


Wishing you enhanced physical, emotional, and spiritual strength,

Curious About Meditation?

Here's How to Start.........

July 2017 Newsletter

Meditation is such a big part of my life. It’s how I begin and end my days. And, I’m often asked how to do it. So, I thought I’d share with you a bit about what it is, *how *to meditate, and some ways you can get started.


First, meditation is an easy, simple process and doesn’t cost a thing. You begin the same way as you would any lifestyle change—like losing 50 pounds.


You would never do a two-hour CrossFit workout the first day you worked on losing weight. The same is true for meditation. You would never meditate for two hours your first time.


Instead, you start meditation slowly. You have to be consistent and persistent. And, more importantly, you must find the meditation techniques that work best for you and fit your lifestyle. Otherwise, you won’t

Types of Meditation

There are two types of meditation: restful meditation and mindful and relaxed meditation. Both are meditation. Both will give you the same healthful benefits. But, they are a bit different from each other.

Restful Meditation

Restful meditation is the kind most people think of when they envision meditation.


Restful or relaxed state meditation is when you are physically relaxed and progressively relaxed further during the meditation itself.


Typically, people sit or lie down on a couch or mat, close their eyes, and focus on breathing. Taking deep, slow breaths in and exhaling slowly pushing all the air out of their lungs.


In a more traditional meditation, soft, new age music may be played in the background. Meditation purists or gurus would suggest you sit on the floor. That way you can be more connected to the earth.


But, you don’t have to do that. The idea is to sit or lie still with your eyes closed, quiet the mind (no thinking), and focus on taking deep breaths in and exhaling all the air.


The other type is mindful and relaxed meditation. This is a less obvious form of meditation where a person is awake (eyes open), but he or she is focused and engaged in an activity. The meditation part is that the person is mentally present with that activity and focused solely on that activity. What I mean is, they don’t have thoughts as they do the activity.


For example, if you enjoy gardening, to do a mindful and relaxed meditation you would focus only on doing the gardening. You’d watch yourself scoop a bit of dirt and look at the worm wiggling out of the soil without worry, anxiety, or thought. You just scoop dirt and observe what you’re doing with a quiet mind, allowing your skin to absorb the sun and your lungs to breathe the fresh air. No thoughts about work, your family, or whatever crisis may have arisen earlier in the day. No thinking. Not even about the next step in the activity—you simply do that next step when it’s time. That’s all there is to it.


To do a mindful and relaxed meditation, you choose an activity you enjoy and focus on absorbing what’s going on moment by moment while you’re doing it. There are no thoughts. Just breathing in, exhaling, and enjoying that activity.


The type of activity doesn’t matter either, as long as it’s an activity you enjoy. So, it can be walking, cooking, crafting, playing with a pet, or another favorite activity. The meditation is focused on doing that one activity and doing one part of that activity at a time.

Meditation for Beginners

When you first begin learning meditation, you have to train your mind to be quiet. Think of it like taming a wild bull. It’s been free to think as often as it pleased, but now you’re teaching it to quiet. It will take some
time. And, that is perfectly normal and okay. You’ll want to find a room that’s quiet and a chair that’s comfortable.


It may be helpful to use a guided meditation for your first time. A guided meditation is where you have someone help you meditate either in person or via a recording of some kind. 


For example, the person guiding you through the meditation might say something like, “Get into a comfortable position and close your eyes … take a deep breath, as deeply as you can … hold it for a moment … and exhale … as you release the air … imagine a beautiful beach in front of you … the waves gently come ashore … the sun warms your body … and as you breathe, you become more … and more relaxed …”


At KUADRA, clients can have me guide them through a meditation specific for their situation. But, you don’t have to have a person there with you. You can use guided meditation CDs, DVDs, YouTube videos, and MP3 files in either a male or female voice. Some you must purchase, others are free. It’s important to choose one that sounds relaxing and soothing to you. 


When you start meditating, start slow. Meditate for five minutes or less per day a few times a week, and then increase to daily. After some time, gradually increase the number of minutes you meditate.


Most people say not to meditate longer than 15 minutes, but I’ve meditated for two hours before. The length varies, so you want to be flexible instead of analytical. Trust your inner guidance system (that “gut” feeling). Meditate for as long as it is comfortable for you.


It also may be helpful to have a mantra you say during the meditation. A mantra is a simple word or word phrase that you repeat to yourself. It is used to help quiet the mind, such as “I am healthy and happy.” After a bit, you stop saying the mantra and just breathe without thought. Sometimes mantras are part of a guided meditation.


Is There a Wrong Way to Meditate?
Sometimes people think they are doing it wrong when their mind wonders. But, that’s normal. It’s more about stepping back and noticing your mind has wondered. Then gently guiding it back. You can tell yourself, “not now” or “release” to help you let go of those thoughts and focus on your breath again. Sometimes soft music helps.


You also may fall asleep. That is perfectly normal. It’s important to not have pre-conceived ideas about what you should be doing, but doing and finding what feels right for you. The intention of your meditation is key, so do what feels best or comfortable.


If you see images of people you don’t know or colors or past events flash in your mind as you meditate, don’t panic or worry. It’s normal and natural, so relax or repeat your mantra (if you use one). When you
experience those things, know that you’re in the theta or deep state of meditation.


If you’re interested in a guided meditation session or want to learn more, let me know at your next appointment. Or, call the office today to schedule an appointment, (210) 314-7687.

Making an Important Decision?

Sound Healing May Help                                   

June 2017 Newsletter

The sounds of summer are here. You may notice them too. From birds singing in the morning to the crickets at night, they remind me of sound healing and how helpful it has been to my clients.


Sound healing is the use of vibrations, particularly sound vibrations to help heal the body mentally, physically, and spiritually. Since negative energy may make you feel stressed, depressed, anxious, or even physically ill, sound healing vibrations can help to soothe your body and radiate outany negative energy [Shrestha (1)].


During shamanic sound healing, a drum is used. The drum represents the heartbeat of the earth and has been used by shamans to access non-ordinary reality. When used during hypnotherapy or meditation, it helps the person relax into a deeper trance state.


In my practice, drums, tuning forks, crystal bowls, Tibetan bowls, shamanic rattles, bells, rain sticks, a didgeridoo (the Australian instrument that looks like a large, long tube), and a gong may be used during a sound healing session. In addition, I use the Reiki chakra points to aid in healing.


Sound healing has been around for a very long time. According to Shrestha(1), sound healing with singing bowls dates back more than 2,000 years to Buddha. It has since been passed down each generation.


What happens during a sound healing therapy session at KUADRA?


Before beginning a guided meditation or hypnosis session using sound healing, I may ask two questions. First, if the client agrees to trust theprocess. And second, if they give me permission to intercede on their behalf during the hypnotic trance and guided imagery stages. I also, set an invocation, inviting the assistance of the client's spiritual support system. Then I guide them into meditation.


Once the client is relaxed and moved into an alpha theta state, then drumming is introduced.


This helps the person fall deeper into a trance state. It is also during this time that I sometimes use ancient Tibetan and/or Buddhism chants. The drumming produces Koan (pronounced “coin”). Koan is a sound that confuses the ego mind. During everyday life, our thoughts (from the ego mind) cannot stop thinking and judging.


The ego tries to over control and over analyze the things on our mind which robs the mind of clarity and access to inspiration. So, during meditation the koan sound (created from drumming) breaks up the chaos of the mind and makes it difficult for the ego to function during the hypnotherapy and meditation session. The body tension releases and the mind and body are relaxed. It is in this relaxed state that the higher self can be accessed and I can introduce positive affirmations and affect change.


Sound Healing & Accessing the One Mind

Sound is vibration. Our bodies are movement, which is also vibration. 


In quantum theory, it is thought that all particles in the universe interact with one another through these vibrations. Every interaction is said to be a communication between the particle and the matter far away from it(2). 


Because of this, during sound healing sessions when a client is in a hypnotic (or trance state), we’re able to access subtle vibrations and the One Mind, referred to as the synchronized universe. The One Mind is the collective intelligence of us all.


What happens after a sound healing session?


After a sound healing session, I debrief about the experience with the client. They will share their experiences, visions, dreams, feelings, and any epiphanies that came to them.


Most clients report a deep feeling of relaxation rarely experienced in daily life, where their body feels heavy and numb, almost as though they just came out of anesthesia.  


Some report having spiritual experiences, such as seeing their past trauma images release from their body, images of angels, energies in the form of geometric shapes and patterns, spirit animals, guides or loved ones who have crossed over, past life experiences, and future life experiences. Clients may also have feelings that they are not alone,a release of cold energy from their body, experience epiphanies,and messages or solutions to life challenges.


 Later, they may notice a reduction and elimination of anxiety, fears and guilt, improved restful sleep, a sense of detachment from problems, clarity of mind, and the ability to deal with stress better.


Sound healing doesn’t have to be used for an immediate need, but can be used at any time for overall wellbeing, when making a big or any important decision, or to understand the past.


If you’re interested in a sound healing session, let me know at your next appointment. Or, call the office today to schedule an appointment, (210) 314-7687.


Wishing you enhanced physical, emotional, and spiritual strength.


Khadijat Samadhi, LPC, NCC, CHt



Counseling & Consulting, LLC


P.S. If at any time you need to just clear your mind, the healing sounds of nature can also help. Go to a quiet space outside. Listen to those birds singing, the ocean waves at the beach, the wind blowing through the trees, or nighttime bugs chirping away. Take a few deep breaths and listen. It is sound healing in its simplest form.


(1) Shrestha, S. (2013).  *How to Heal with Singing Bowls*. U.S.A.: First Sentient Publications, 14, 19.


(2) Swanson, C. (2009). *The Synchronized Universe: New Science of the Paranormal*. Tucson, AZ: Poseidia Press, 241.

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