I had another wonderful moment with my son. He appeared to me in a different form. He looked more like a golden ball of light emanating silver colors and quite difficult to describe in words. I asked him why his life was cut short? Was this the grand plan of GOD or the work of evil entities?
He tells me he didn’t want to be on earth anymore and he really wasn’t meant to have left so soon but he realized he couldn’t be himself. He is with God and full of joy. He is relieved to be himself again. He said… “mom don’t be so quick to leave like me. You still have 20 more years of giving. You are so much stronger than me and please stay so I can work through you”. He also told me that we could never truly feel God, not while in a body and even the Christ and all the great teachers had difficulty during their time on earth. He was ecstatic, his effervescent light glimmers more brightly as he tells me--- “mom! You are right, you are right about everything!!! With you being my only link to earth, I can still gift joy to you and the world”.
In that moment, it all became clear to me. When he had told me that he left because he could not be himself on earth. He said... "I would have to be 70 years old by the time he gets a glimpse of myself and so I took the sacrifice to leave". I wondered what that had to do with his life path. How his date of birth was 9/10/99, the apartment he lived in was 9, his license plate numbers added up to 9, literally all the cars he drove. his astrology was a perfect cross and Chiron in 29 spelling the ultimate sacrifice and a 12th house stellium of self-undoing. His I-Ching was literally to transmute oppression to transfiguration!
He is now a full spectrum light being!! He completed his ultimate SIDDHI, to further his evolution by making the ultimate sacrifice to be himself. Something very few could dare to do. He is now free to be the golden light he really was and had always been!!! He gave up life on earth to be himself.
Three days, after my son's death, Angels told me in a dream that my son will be reborn, for he took the steps and faced his shadows and achieved his transfiguration.